Changy's Life

So tonight, I still felt awful for what I did last night..and so I wanted to surprise Clem and so I went and got his (now) FAVOURITE 'Blondies' and went to his workplace to wait for him to leave work. He got all excited that I got him a bag (and they really DO taste that good)...but to my dismay he didn't seem to want to do anything, I guess cuz he had just worked a 12 hour shift and he probably wanted to get some sleep before having to pick up his sister!
So anyway, after we 'parted'...I went up to his HILL and jsut sat there listening to music for a little whlie...the sun was setting and tonight's sky was absolutely pretty. After that, I thought I was going to go to Blockbuster to rent "Bowling for Columbine" - cuz I really want to see that since everyone who has really liked it - but then I had a big craving to drive past 31 Limcombe. Stupid idiotic me, FORGOT how to get there so I had to call CLem up and he gave me the directions. OMG, I am so in love with this house. The more I see the more I wanna live in it! Cept tonight, I realized...I don't recall seeing the actual house number...so I don't know how we got 31...but oh wells.
So..after that I figured I"d wasted enough gas driving aimlessly around - and it's damn expensive too! - came home and after less than like 10 mins watching tv...I got a phone call on my cell! I thought at first it was Sylvia because she's the only one who calls me and it shows up as "unknown number" but it ended up being EMMA calling from Wolfsville, Nova Scotia!!! That was so sweet of her..we talked for a long time..and she todl me her lovely stories - her life out there is so much more interesting than mine sometimes. Hehe,...that and her lil' boys...she's such a heartbreaker! That made me feel good...I love getting phone calls...especailly if they're long distance cuz then that means you're extra special and extra loved!
SO anyways, after I got off the phone I had a feeling that someone would be online(I was originally hoping it'd be Clem but it's oK) so I've been here for a while now..and as I'mchatting with people..who shows up? My good ole' BEST FRIEND JENNA!!! She intiated an audio chat and we just talked (FOR FREE) for about an hour or so. She's doing well with her play and she's too, glad to be away from Toronto. All of these people, I'm so jealous of them, leading a life away from their home town. It must be so much fun to just get away from the busy-ness of this huge city; no worries of the parents and just being yourself and independent..no one haggling you down. (is haggling a real word? OH well it's in Denise's vocabulary now..) I gotta bust my butt this year too..goshdarnit ..I don't like school!
Anyways, it gets even BETTER! Out of nowhere my dad asks me, do you wanna go shopping in Buffalo tomorrow?! Could it get ANY better than THAT?! I got real smart too, I finally paid most of my tuition back to my mom (who paid for it in advance since I don't have a REAL bank account - PC..hehe) and so now that I"ve given her 4K...she's gonna be QUITE generous tomorrow when we're shopping!!=) I even get to see Clem in the morning cuz we have to stop by his bank so that he can get us US money so I'm probably only not going to be able to see him Sunday!
SO lesson learned?: Life will always test you, but things always have a bright side. Thanks Clement. You're too smart for me..hehe
k gonna keep chatting with people and then watch some tele! My uneventful night turned out to be GRRRRRRRRREAT

So I've been feeling really 'not good' lately. I can't quite pinpoint it..at first I thought it was cuz summer is over and I don't feel like I"ve done all that much. But all in all, I really have. I went to Montreal, a full season with softball, got to see COLDPLAY in concert, went to the Rogers AT&T Cup finals...D&B..3 full weeks of the West Coast..when I look back on it, I've actually accomplished more in these past 4 months than I have any other of my summers. But I dont' know, I think things are changing, we're growing older and things aren't quite the same anymore. I sometimes feel like I've failed my best friend, I know what it's like to realize who your real friends are in your time of need and I sometimes feel liKe I was too pre-occupied with things in my life to worry about her's. However, she knew that I was always available and willing to be there any moment of the day...she's always told me that she's very grateful to have me as her best friend...and I to her. We've known each other since gr 7; became best friends in gr 8...and we've mostly had our ups than downs in the past 6 yrs or so. We can talk about almost anything...it's nice:) I wanna visit her @ QUEEN'S!!!!!!
I feel really bad this morning...I went and did something very stupid and it's all my fault. I took a lot of my frustration out on Clement..and being the sweetheart that he is, he just handled it and took it in, until I said something really stupid and he just..broke down. And that's when I realized that I'm just completely retarded so many of the times and he's just the "knight in shining armour" (or should I say Paladin?=); holding me when I need it and loving me more than ever when I don't see or give him any reason to. He loves me so much, I don't feel like I deserve it at all...I've got that storybook love:) I'm glad I know that he loves me just as much, maybe even more (uhoh..don't tell him i said that:) than I love him... why do girls have to suck so much sometimes? I hate how we overanlayze, how we let the most minute things bother us...how we have to continuously be insecure and judgmental. It really pisses me off...
So I've got the whole weekend pretty much to myself, and I dont' know what I'm going to do! I could play some tennis, someone mentioned going clubbing but I don't know what I'm up to doing yet. This is the last weekend I'll get to see others...it's going to be sad. All my 'baby' churchies are leaving...all my friends are going back to their respective schools...
Yet I'm here, in Toronto...gotta look on the brighter side...that's clem's wise advice.
OKie, back to work...at least I'm making money!

Wow, sorry for not updating, if anyone actually reads this...I don't think anyone does...hmm..haha so I just ramble to myself..that's ok...maybe years down the road these are the posts that'll help me remember these sweet memories:)
So in the 6 days that have gone by, some things have ended, goodbyes were said and work has become full time again.
My Paladins worked their butts off during the regular season, and we ended with a 8-2 record, just a lil' shy of last season's 9-1. We played EXCELLENTLY on Saturday - both of our games were nearly perfect. Everyone did their part and the team, again, gelled together to become one. We were unstoppable, so it seemed as everyone called it a night after two fun games. We were pumped and ready, a little bit hopeful, and I think a little bit scared of what was to come in the semis. We tried our best and we lost to a good team. We shook hands, and held our heads high...our season was great and wonderful. This coach got the best team she could ask for; and the best support she could ever imagine from an amazing group of people.
As well, both Jenna & Emma went back to their respective schools:( Jenna's not as far, and I'd really like to go visit her sometime up there..but Emma went on her airplane and went far far away...and we might not even see her during Christmas cuz her family might be going to Mexico!!! But at least we still get to talk on MSn..so that's better...it's sad having people go away... all my churchies that are all grown up now (haha they're only 1-2 yrs younger!) but I'm going to miss seeing them every week with their cheerful smiles...awww...
Yesterday I went to dinner with Clem @ Marche...hehe we had some mussels...mmmmm...that place is expensive, but they do have a different type of setting so it's somewhat cool. Crepes..omg..too good. I wish I knew how to make them..I'd eat them for breakfast..heeh
Afterwards, we hung out @ Nick's for a while..his dad put up a deck in his backyard, it's sooo nice! It's got benches and everything...and his doggy is so cool...=) Had to say goodbye to Haley last night..she leaves tomorrow for Queen's..*sigh* makes me feel like I"m not going anywhere, stationary and not moving along...but I know I kind of am. In my own kind of way I guess, but still, everyone's talking about living in their own place(s)..own rooms, own apartments etc. I still like living @ home cuz then I don't have to worry abot lotsa stuff but still...argg..I"m just frustrated and annoyed.
Back to work I go...thank goodness I don't have to answer phone calls. I have so little time until I have to go back to school=( AND I'm a frosh leader so one less week of fun...well hopefully it'll make up for it.

So, @ approximately 9:15am, Clem and I set out to our journey to the States to do some cheap shopping! This time it took us a little longer to get there, I think cuz we missed an exit and had to go a little bit further..but we're not entirely sure. We just figured we'd follow the signs..kinda 'risque' but what's an adventure without driving aimlessly??=)
So we get to the border around 11ish, and easily get across. Of course, as we're waiting in line in "neutral territory" we have to have some "what if" situations. "what if when he asks if we have any weapons, we response with 'maybe, what's it to ya?' or What if you were to drive up to the lineup, I get out and just run across, do you think they'd shoot me dead?" haha..you can always rely on CLem to come out with soem silly situations, but always good for laughs!
So we hit the mall and we do some hardcore searching for some good deals! We obviously hit adidas first...I got this tank top, and he got a 'climate' shirt and some wristbands - uhoh, beware..hehe Then I hit Old Navy and got me some good, cool jeans!!! Clem hit Sunglass Hut and FINALLY got a pair of Oakleys! He coudln't decide between the "Half jackets" - oh-so-pretty!! and "Fives"?? He ended up getting the Fives mostly cuz their lenses were brown..hehe So then we hit Aeropostale and I got myself a pretty sweater...I should've gotten maybe another one!!! But ohh well, we had our lunch and then we just decided to head back to Toronto...since we didn't wanna spend anymore and we were both kinda tired.
So we got into a lil' trouble with Customs...but stilldidn't have to pay taxes (HA! take THAT!) and we headed home. The drive was a lil' rough...I was really tired and my eyes were...closing...got "honked" at once..and then I tried real hard to stay awake from then on! Clem fell asleep and was SNORING!!! hehe
It was a good day though, it's always nice to spend the day with him...hehe
HAHA and then later at night, we were @ Kyle's house playing cards (goshdarnit everytime I got FOUR Of a kind someone else goes and gets ROYAL FLUSHES...piece of...) anyways, so Nick had brought his flood light with an extension cord and we went to Bellbury to check it out! It's soo funny..they were playing in the dark with this HUGE bright light goin' and ppl on the streets were like WHAT THE?!? It was quite hilarious..I'll put the pic up once my film gets developed...

So it was quite the fun time! We got to see Justine Henin-Hardenne defeat Lina Krasnoroutskaya..not only was it a 'win' Lina got DESTROYED 6-1, 6-0. I'm sure it was Justine's easiest 192,000$(US) made in LESS than an hour! I think Lina just gave up, especially after the first set, she probably figured that she's already gotten ranked (because she went into the tournament unranked!!) and is gonna make 97,000$ anyways! She got ZERO aces, and Justine got 11!! She had so many unforced errors it was disappointing. I wish I could play like Justine, or any other female pro player..that'd be wicked. We're (Clem & I) thinking of taking lessons but I know we wouldn't be in the same class, no way! He's so good...I don't like playing with him against other people cuz I always screw it up!
Anyways, then we stayed and watched the doubles...Martina Navratilova - she is SO good at what she does. Even as a crappy amateur, it's easy to tell that she knows where the ball's gonna be two steps ahead. Her touch and placement is PERFECT that was a great game to watch. Her 'challengers' weren't so bad either...there were a couple of times where Navratilova just made 'em look SILLY but her teammate really needed some help. Svetlana Kuznetsova, only 18, has a lot of room for improvement...she's good at tennis obviously but when she's playing beside Martina, it makes you wonder why they're teammates. Either way, they ended up winning the championship and it is quite possible that that's the last time we'll ever see Navratilova play in Toronto.
All in all, it was a great day and a nice memory to have. The last time they'll ever play on those courts, cuz of the new Rexall Centre...I got a "Kim Clijster's" tshirt that Clem bought me (and he got a pretty hat that makes him look DAMN fine...hehe=).

Ooh, I didn't have to do my driving test!! They were closed this morning when I got there, I'm quite relieved cuz I wasn't QUITE prepared I don't think. I didn't really practice at all...just didn't feel like it? I gotta reschedule it though..anyways gtg...

Last night, my good ole' HS buddies & I organized a BBQ @ Al's house for about, 30ish people...some great food, good reminscing and an all around awesome time had=) We even celebrated Nick's birthday!! Cept he wouldn't walk away from the BBQ and he ended up cooking a lot of the food. It may be quite possible that last night was the last time we'd all be together until perhaps Christmas.=(
We played some video games (MORTAL COMBAT), shot some pool..wilf got STONED haha..that was quite funny! Emma was driving the "slut mobile", that was hilarious!! Chen ate the 'pie' that fell on the ground, and probably to this day has no idea that he did...
I'm gonna miss all of those going away...you guys always make me smile and make me remember the good times! I was stupid AGAIN and I forgot to bring my camera!! D'oh!!
We also had a good practice yesterday, led by John! A few seniors showed up...so that was pretty good too. I think we're ready, we're focused, and I can tell each player on the team wants this bad. Now or never? Nah...but it's gonna be harder in the senior league, which we may go next year. It'd just be for the best.
I'm starting to get a lil' confused too...not sure as to how to read certain things or whether I should be bothered by it at all. I sometimes truly hate bein' a girl (although it is better than the alternative). We analyze the CRAP out of EVERYTHING. It stinks. Grrr...I'm sure all you females out there know what I'm talking about....
Anyways, I'm going to the AT&T Tennis finals today!! I'm excited...I better go shower..

Last night was BEEEEEAUTIFUL. I can't remember the last time that my family (well minus my China-bound brother) went for a walk around the neighbourhood. My parents couldn't remember what shooting stars were. Just imagine how our camping trips used to be..(think, "wow, it's already 11pm...we should go to bed" of course, after playing MJ with special MJ cards). Before the moon came up, the night was as clear as crystal. The stars were just as pretty as the ones, maybe even nicer since it was cloudy, that we saw during SCYG Camping'03. Reading at night to candlelight was quite calming and a little bit nerve-racking at the same time.
I woke up a few times during the night thinking that the electricity would have been back on but when I finally got a wake-up call from my boss, he assured me that I didn't need to go into work (not that I had any way of getting down there - I sure as heck wasn't going to drive downtown!) SO the day began, thinking of ways to keep myself occupied. Cleaned out some of my drawers...put the clothes away that have been sitting so messily on my chair & 'coat tree' - which shoudl really be called my 'random-clothes-tree'. I fell asleep a lot of the time and was awaken by the lights in my room turning on!!! Yay!
I madly rushed around the house doing things that I needed to do before another blackout hit...charging my cell, boiling water - my dad freaks out if he doesn't have coffee to drink, watching CP24..checking the good ole' email -obvioulsy nothing, no one else really writes besides those who are in the city. Well there are some (Jo...Ray:) but theyr'e quite busy with their stuff these days..(hope you're safe:)
Talked to a couple of people online, apparently the Danforth area has had electricity since 10am!!! how is THAT fair??
Anyways, went out to get stuff for 2morrow's BBQ...there are a lot of ppl at dominion and they're quickly losing their bakery department. I didn't help either...40 hamburger buns, 24 hotdog buns. These people were laughing at me, but I didn't care, they were old and wrinkly...I'll let them laugh. Went over to Alan's house..that fella's soo funny! Poor boy is staying home alone..but at least he's got a gas stove! He had a HOT dinner last night..BOOOOOOOOOOOOO hehe
Anyways, just waiting for time to pass cuz I gotta go pick up my hottie from his house to watch some good ole' Chinese movies...