Changy's Life

Starting anew

2004-03-14T20:00:00.000-05:00

Check this out

Giving it a new whirl at it.

Closed for Business.

2004-02-04T11:44:00.000-05:00

For a while, I've been questioning who actually comes here and reads my thoughts/blogs. The people that I did want to come here, I don't think they actually do. I actually don't think many come at all so it seems like I'm wasting my time 'writing to myself'. I'd rather be talking to myself, but then again that's not so cool either. It got kinda scary, when something happened during the day, my first initial thought was "ooh I can't wait to blog about that.." and hell that's messed.

So, after a short 8 months, Denise's blog is no longer. Thanks to those who did come around, if you stlil do, thanks for caring and checking in with me. I'll still be around on MSN/ICQ and my phone is always open to those who want to talk.
Take care.

Golly Jee Whitakers!

2004-01-30T11:31:00.000-05:00

hehehe
I am so tired right now, it's insane.
Well, Tuesday *thank GOODNESS* is over with. I had another 12 hour day AND there was the storm AND they didn't cancel my classes=( But the prof for Jap Cin was nice, he let us out an hour early, but I got left behind a half hour for work. Booo. But whatever, it's OVER:)
Wednesday was alright, came to work, then went to school for an hour=) It was REALLY interesting, we talked about the Church in Nazi Germany. I had no idea that Hitler was a devout Catholic...as were his followers. It all makes so much sense now, the massacre against the Jews. It kinda makes me mad that in HS and as well as in my elementary school, they never told me that. I guess I could've researched it myself, but I dunno, it never dawned on me why they WERE persecuting Jews, but it all...fits together now. Hmm. Wednesday night we went out to this dinner place near Market Village (Green onions & Garlic?! haha I think that's the name too). We had lotsa food, GOOD STUFF. Lobster & CRAB!!! Afterwards, we went to visit ROB who was on a JOB! he was in full uniform and everything, we took pictures in the middle of Skymark Plaza. It was sooooo funny (ohhh, I guess I should tell you, Rob is a COP). These people were staring at us and thought we were insane. It was quite amusing=) After a lil' bit he had to go back to work and we had to head home. Clem called me and he wanted to get some food, we got into a bit of a tiff earlier in the day (but all is well=) so we just spent a little bit of time together. We went to Johnny's, the boys were hungry, and I got a shake:D Boys, as in we met Wilfred there. Ohh man I was soo paraonid, their parking lot was NOT shoveled at all and I really thought I was going to get stuck. Luckily I didn't...phew! Went home a lil' early, had to finish up my chinese and so I was watching tv while I was doing it, and my cousin came down and we talked...from 11:30 to 2:30 in the MORNING! I was lke WHOA it's almost 3am!! I gotta work in the morning!! That was pretty cool.
Thursday morning. OHHH man, sooo sleepy. Had to work til 1:30, I got Carmen to do my chinese homework=) Well just the sentences part. heheh..man I gotta start reviewing that crap. Class was boring, but I like people in that class, they're very cool, and yes I know I already said that in a previous blog. On the way home, I ran into Robbie Kidnie on the subway. We were talking til he got off @ Lawrence, and the KID got LASER EYE SURGERY!! he was telling me the procedure *ewwwww* I am almost certain there were women on the subway train laughing at the faces I was giving as he was telling me the procedure. Yuck. My mom made me go out to Clem's branch so she could get some HK$...after that I went to Fairview cuz I had to buy my good ole' Cousin RAY:) a present! I guess..I won't tell her what I got since...she sometimes come by.!! Later at night, I hung out with Clem & Woo, lost 4$...but it was just Woo's money=)
now it's Friday and I've had approximately 10 hours of sleep in 2 days. Tonight I'm supposed to chill with my cousin, not sure where to take him yet. If he's going to chlil with my brother, clem wants to go out with his colleague's to play some MJ. He wants us to go, but I'm kinda nervous. He went and TOLD them that I'm good! I"M NOT THAT GOOOD! My grandma taught me when I was like 14/15 when she was here (visiting from Aussie, oh that's where my cousin Austin who's here right now is from). But whatever it's only 10$ and it's all for fun=) I guess we'll see how that goes! Ok I should get back to work, actually I should probably go to bed but that's not gonna happen.
Have a great weekend!
Ohh I guess I should explain that title. I was on the phone this morning and this guy I was talking to couldn't remember his address.,..so he swore. And then when I asked him for his postal code, he said "GOLLY JEEE WHITAKERS! how could i forget my postal code?!" it was kinda funnny...hehe Ok. back to work . right.

hehehehe

2004-01-26T17:19:00.000-05:00

Just found this online...

My guess....Philippoussis, Agassi, Lleyton (Hewitt), Venus, & Clijsters.

it's COOOOOOOOOOOOOLD

2004-01-26T17:14:00.000-05:00

Alrighty, so...I haven't updated in a while..
Thursday - Chinese New Year, went to work, went to Mandarin where we had a mini new year party, the teacher was sooo nice she bought us duck and everything it was cool...I like my class, minus the fact that MANY of them are scammers, they're cool people.

Friday - went to work...they had NOTHING for us to do so I got to leave early in which I went shopping!!! I decided to go to EC alone since Janice had to go up to T&T with her other friend and I didn't wanna bother Yvonne in case she was with Pat. A couple of my colleagues were jealous, they wanted the afternoon off with me to go shopping..hehe SO yeh, I decided to walk ALL of Eaton Centre..and I did it very..strategically. Started at one end, and worked my way UP the 3/4 flights (including basement) so that I'd end up on the DUndas side so I could go to Urban Outfitters. I was looking for a tote bag but I just coudln't find a nice enough one. (I got the LL BEAN catalogue in the mail today! I WANNA ORDER!) I got Clem this retro tshirt that he wanted, but didn't wanna spend the money on and I got myself ONE weight. That's right. I figured I'd only need one, and not two because I'd be doing one arm at a time! Apparently I got ripped off though=( Sears was selling it..with 25% off..and I still got ripped. Darnit. Anyways, that took up about an hour and a half and then I headed home. Met up with Clem after he got off work and we went to Kelseys for some food=) I got the Chicken pizza and he got his ribs. Actually I wasn't that hungry and he coudln't decide on one of those so I decided to order the other one=) I got to use my Gift Certificate that the Wongs gave me..THANK YOU!

Saturday....had a big dinner at my house. That was fun, lotsa food. After that I picked up Clem, and met up with Alan, Nick, Woo & Wilf. We went to Alleycatz - "supposedly" a jazz club but their live band that night was NOT playing jazz. Kept playing cover songs by Remy Shand, John Mayer and some other people. It was a nice plcae, turned into a club later on. After that we went to Al's to play some POOL and we (FINALLY!) watched Rounders. It was a good movie, except I think Nick & Clem hyped it up too much for me. I HATE when that happens!=) Got home @...3ish ...luckily didn't get into trouble=)

SUNDAY was the BIG day! CLEMENT"S 21ST BIRTHDAY!=) YAY! (We like making birthdays an entire weekend event..hehehe) Actually, scratch that..I like making birthdays an entire weekend event. He had dinner @ home and had his daddy's cake...afterwards I went over for a little bit before we played some tennis=) That was fun, but the lady that was working there was being sooo stupid. I think Alan shoulda whipped a ball at her...she deserved it!

Monday (today) - wasn't too bad. I woke up at about 1030ish...bummed around til 1:15 when I went to school. Got to class, sat there for about 10-15 mins..until this guy came in and said that our prof had called..he's stuck in Waterloo and class was cancelled!!! YAYYYY!!! Kinda sucks that I went all the way down there but whatever, my dad picked me up cuz he was just leaving work. Got home and we just put together the snow-blower cuz of the 15 cm of snow we're waiting for. It's FREEEEEEEEEEEEZING out!!!!
Ok, I should go get some work done...or get distracted by Ronhinton Mistry's "A Fine Balance" THANKS for buying it for me Clem..you're right, I am liking it so far! Donna you were RIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT!

I've got an obsession with owning movies...

2004-01-21T11:18:00.000-05:00

So, on Monday night, my brother got back from China! He's here for..about 3-4 weeks to a.) meet up with some people and b.) SUPERBOWL! Eventually I"m sure the two will mix, since the playoffs began, he's "isolated' himself from the news and we had to tape EVERY SINGLE game for him. From now until Feb 1st, he plans to watch every single game, from beginning to end. Yes, he will do it too. He's watching the Broncos/Colts game right now!! I'm having fun teasing him about it...like "oh, no point watching THIS game.." "damn that's too bad that they tried so hard in this game.." hahahah I'm so evil..but don't worry I didn't give it away.
He brought back Clem's vest for him - and aside from some obvious stuff (like how North Face never has hoods for their vests) it's pretty hard to tell it's a fake. AND my bro bought me a BUNCH of movies from China...fakes obviously but who cares! They look real and have the boxes and such...I got..Finding Nemo, Kill Bill (YAY!), LOTR: ROTK, How to Lose a guy in 10 Days, etc etc. I asked my bro to get me Bend It Like Beckham (GO SEE IT!)...but he got me some documentary on BECKHAM himself. WHAT THE?!?!!? It's called "beckham unwrapped" - apparently he's a GOD in China/HK.
Yesterday was KILLER. I had my usual 8 hours of class - pretty much stayed til the end in all of 'em and it was awful. I was sooo tired by Jap Cinema...but then RIGHT after I had to go to work cuz we were having this 3 hour training session. Remember how...some teachers in high school would read straight out of the book and you thought it was entirely pointless because you were quite qualified in reading it yourself? Well picture that...at our meeting. Yah. Some stuff needed explaining...but there was just...pretty self-explanitory stuff, luckily they had candy and I sugar'd up...I had to. I woulda fallen over. They didn't leave me any food for dinner:( I was starving and seriously, knowing that I was going to get chicken pizza at the end of my 8 hours is really what pushed me forward. But then they told me that they had none left..=( SO..my assistant boss ran downstairs and got me a Sante Fe chicken sandwich from Swiss Chalet - DAMMMN that was good=) Got home, wrote a bunch of my paper and now I'm just tweaking it...I thought I might've had to pull an all-nighter but thank goodness I didn't.
Talking to Jenna now,got class @ 2 and then some big dinner for Chinese New year!
Xin Nian Kuaile!!!!

yay..CHINA!

2004-01-17T17:09:00.000-05:00

So my brother went up to Harbin, in northern China..and they're famous for their ice sculptures. This stuff KICKS the ass of what we find @ Nathan Phillips Square...and they do it every year!!!

Harbin Snow and Ice World: simply stunning. But for 80RMB it's the most expensive attractive I've been to in China.

Look at the "wall" of the ice rink!!!!

TGIF!

2004-01-16T09:51:00.000-05:00

Maaaaan, the week is finally OVER, well minus today. Tuesday was HELL as usual, I hate those damn 8 hour days. My Jap Cinema film was sucky too, almost 3 hours of just Olympics. The only amusing thing was that we discovered the most "dangerous" sport was SPEED-WALKING. haha, it's funny watching them do it, but..yeh I can see how it can make someone go crazy.
Anyways, yeah, Tuesday SUCKED. Wednesday was a littttle bit better. It was freezing that morning but LUCKILY my daddy was able to drive me down to school=) YAY! Door to door service! hehe I only had that one class, but I had to go early...so I got to chill with Brendan & Yvonne! SUPER YAY! I haven't seen them....in soo long. I used to see Yvonne about twice a week when I had my GLG...but I never see Brendan! So we had some good laughs and talked...yvonne is sooo funny...she seems happy with Pat=) That makes me glad!
AND THEN...I went home, got into a fight with my mom - BLAH. But later on, we went to KBBQ!!!! That was funnn, apparently ALL THREE GUYS had eaten dinner before hand! What silly foos...heheh Well Clem had eaten at 4 before school...and well, Alan & Clark (Donna couldn't come=( had eaten FULL meals. Good thing though, Alan still had room for 3 bowls of rice!!! hehe That was fun, we talked about stuff...getting hopeful for next season..senior division...we WILL PREVAIL! hehe
But yeh, after...eating til 12ish, we called it a night since Clark had school the next day and I had my test=(
I woke up the next day to find out my computer DIED. That's right, it wouldn't start up! I FREAKED OUT, and immediately ran online and got some good tips from Vicky & Winson. THANKS GUYS! I had to run to Woo's after my test (which was enh...) and..thank GOODNESS something worked. I dont' really know what it was, but...whatever I hope it never comes back! Went to Clem's after, played a lil' LOTR:ROTK on PS2 and then played cards with Woo ... won 4$ again..I dunno like i like winning and everything just it's getting kinda tedious..a lil' mundane that we just..sit there and play.

I got this off Jo's page...I think I want everything that's named here...=) Well she had a little bit more...re: architecture, but...well I'm not as creative. :)
I don`t want my life to be a routine...
I want to be able to say I`ve stepped on all 7 continents.
I want a loft, with a solarium, with hardwood floors, and a green couch.
I want to make a difference in at least 5 people's lives.
I want to be remembered...for something great.
I want my life to be accomplished and stable.

"I'm such a FOOL for you.."

2004-01-12T12:55:00.000-05:00

Aww my sweetie's tooo cute!!! He makes me laugh and smile...even when he's not around=) So yesterday we were talking online and we were talking about how GREAT it was that the gov't gives us free money every three months..YAY! So we were discussing how we spent the money..and he pretty much spent ALL of that and more on ME!!! He got me PIRATES...yay=) I was just gonna borrow Jenna's since she got it for Christmas..but now we've got our own copy=) I'm making him share it with me..I'm sure part of him wanted to own something of Keira Knightley's...heheh AND we're going to Kbbq on WEDNESDAY!! It's half price after 10pm..hahaha Donna & Darryl are coming with=)
Yesterday was pretty cool. Went to church, and Eileen prepared a lil' talk about Burma/Myanmar and it got me really interested. Jas & Ben had a lot to say about it, mostly cuz Jas went to India..and well Ben has lots to say about everything!=) It's so sad to know that these people are under such excruciating circumstances and that they live from day to day. For 42 years, they've lived under military power...and are refused their own human rights. Go here and read an article, with some brief information. It's not such a brief article but I think we owe it to these people to understand, it really makes you realize how blessed we are to live in Canada and how privileged we truly are. Makes me realize that all my silly materialistic worries, mean nothing comparing to the pain and frustration that these people go through.
After that a bunch of us went to lunch @ Licks with Eileen since she's leaving on Tuesday for Denmark=( Aww, it was cool/nice having her here...I haven't seen her in ages, and then she's leaving for another long while!! But she should be having fun, she's planning on meeting up with Fran & Jas (and eric?) in Asia sometime in the summer, possibly running into me!=) That would be pretty cool...
Came home afterwards, took a nap, studied some chiense and talked to a bunch of people online=)
YAY TO JENNA!!! We gotta put him in the hot seat, and totally interrogate him!!! hehehe...dont' worry, Clement and I will be very nice...we won't brand him or anything=) I'm so HAPPY for you!!!!
Okie, work is pissing me off now..>UGH! gotta go.
BYE!

=)

2004-01-09T16:31:00.000-05:00

I'm a happy camper.
My RLG203 prof, Lehto, decided to postpone our essay that he assigned us another week since he said that he woudln't be able to touch it until the week after anyways!=) YAY! That means I've only got my chinese test on Thursday to study for! But I also have to do that reading, I hate those readings...the ones that were written in like the 3rd century...how did they SURVIVE?! I don't get it....I just don't. Hmm, maybe my friends from my group would be interested in swapping information...hmm.......hehe
So yah, yesterday was tons'o fun. I came to work, that was tiring cuz I coudln't sleep the night before. Anyways left at 1:30 to go to mandarin, which wasn't too bad. We're having a CHINESE NEW YEAR celebration on the 22nd YAY! It's funny, the prof asked some ppl to help organize the entire thing..and the two 'caucasian' ppl in the class volunteer..hehe THey're funny though, this one girl is 24(ish?) and she's from the Czech Republic..she's sooo funny. good times good times=) My friend was telling me about how her sister worked as some sort of therapist, I can't remember...and it was the sickest thing i've ever heard. It was sooo nasty, I told Clem later, and apparently he wasnt' disgusted ... all he said was "Yeah..haven't you heard of that?" haha
Which brings me onto last night..so I didn't eat dinner at home, my mom was a lil' sad cuz she had to eat alone..she's been allll sick. She got the FLU SHOT, as did my dad and after they were bitching at me to get it (final answer: NO) she ended up getting SICK!!!! I know it's not good to be happy that she's sick, I'm not..it's just...I won the argument=) So anyways, I waited til Clem got off work and originally we were going to go to Kelsyes or something cuz I have a gift certificate left over from Christmas, cept..his dad had gone to Sushi Buffet earlier in the dya and so we decided to go too=) It was soooo good! I don't know if we put 'em out of business or not (haha prolly not..) but we tried to figure out the prices and I'm pretty sure we got our money's worth. There was this cute lil' boy there...awww...which led us to talk about his cousins' baby LEO! and my cousin's baby MATTISE! Aww they're both so cute=) That was so good times, talking and such=)
Then we went back to his house for a bit, waited for Woo to show up and played s'more cards=) It was so nice just talking and being with him..I wish it never had to end.. he was telling me about "back in the daY' when I had a crush on him in gr 10..and how we (my friends and I) always made him super self-conscious ... cuz he thought we were talking about him (the word was somewhat out that I had a crush on him) and so he was always trying to be on his best behaviour...hah it was funny!=)
Ohhh the memories of gr 10...GB, Disco Stu, Mtn Dew, Colin, Oh henry...ahh the good times=) From english to my messed up 89 in french..it was alllll jokes. Street & Emma were both in those classes...and gym clas omg, that was the best time ever with ... uhoh what was her name...crap! I forgot the teacher's name...she was so cool though=) One of my favourites.
Ohhh and i won another 5$ off woo...and so now I've got a tab on him for 10=) He's...not so lucky at poker but he keeps playing..so it's not REALLY my fault? When I know I've got a winning hand, i don't bet anymore..just check but if they bet I gotta play....cuz..I know I can win. It's true..I DO THAT!!
Anyways, I'm almost done work now..it's been SUCH a slow day. Carmen & I finally finished that game that we were playing!! YAY!!! Darryl made me worried about how he thought it'd NEVER end.
But it did=) Ok, bye now! Have a great weekend!
p.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO! hope you have a great drunken day!! hehe

to my baby...

2004-01-07T16:59:00.000-05:00

(if he comes here..)
Sarah says so much of what I feel about you in this one simple little song. You're my rock, my strength and my love. Thank you, 4 years and counting...many more. I love you.

Sarah's Push

Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
Youve seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land

Chorus
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
Youre the one true thing I know I can believe in
Youre all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
Youre the one true thing I know I can believe

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do #ause youre too good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far youll go
You wont stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

There are times I cant decide when I cant tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise Id drown
But you pick me up & brush me off and tell me Im OK
sometimes thats just what we need to get us through the day

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAY!!! May all your wishes come true:)

Thanks guys=)

2004-01-06T19:25:00.000-05:00

Well, because of my previous blog, I've been getting some well wishes...despite people not knowing what I"m talking about exactly...and for that, I thank you=)
I'm Ok...really just...venting a lil'...it really is helpful sometimes. I talked it out with the other person and we're all good now...nothing that needs to be stretched out or anything!
But thanks again for caring about me...esp you RAY!=)
It's good to know that...people actually read this thing...I never knew that they did! hehe

SO yah, back to school...I had my rlg test today...it went alright, I had a massive headache afterwards, with it being cold outside, and the massive rush for 100 mins...grrr!! But yeh, super long day, after that test, I had 2 hours in chinese...and another FOUR in my Jap Cinema class...omg, we watched this film...by Isaka(?)..entitled "focus"..and the idea of it went real well and it was interesting at what the filmmaker was trying to address..but omg, I'm seriously scarred for life. I won't expose you to what I saw..but man, it's ... NOT pleasant.
Anyways, I'm kinda tired and I wanna just lay around watching TV..which I probably will do since I gotta write some chinese characters, and...to make myself feel better...I do it in front of the tv..hehe it's brain-numbing work..copying out these crazy chinese characters...so....I feel good doing both. =)

curiosity killed the cat...

2004-01-05T01:04:00.000-05:00

Only two people will know what I'm about to rant & rave about..and if you're reading this and you have no clue, thank you for coming, thank you for reading but please dont' worry about me.
It's different that you've never had to be in my situation, to think like I think (although it may not be right to do so..) to feel what I feel. You'll never have to imagine or picture what...images come into my mind, becuase you know that...it's never happened, and likely won't ever happen. It hurts to know that it happened before, and I know that there's nothing we can do about it...to change it, but it's quite simliar to the situation that we're in now. I've had many wrong-doings, and I've made wrong choices/decisions, but what is done IS done. You are still hurt by what I've done, it may not be that I meant to do it, nor did I mean to hurt you...but it still happened. You said that there was no obligation, and you're 100% right, there wasn't...but just the fact that it was all meaningless and pointless, haunts me endlessly to ask then "why?"
Perhaps I don't see the same way, perhaps I won't ever understand why it was so great or a good idea at the time, but what I do know is that it hurts me now. I'm sorry that you wont' let it bother you, but I can't let it not. I can't just push it aside and forget about it, maybe luckily, in due time, I will, and I'll turn a blind eye to it, but right now it's fresh and the idea of it is all new to me. I used to guess that that is what happened, and..just like the title of this ... I was stupid enough to ask.
I'm sorry that you think it shouldn't bother me, but it does...I'm sorry that you don't care or won't worry about it..but I can't do the same. True, it's made you the person that you are now, and you know that things won't ever go back...but Im also telling you that this won't affect how I feel about you, what I think about you or what I see when I look at you. It just hurts, to picture these occurences...you can't picture them because that would be pure fiction...and there would be no pain, regarding this, for you to be hurt from me.
THis is my reality..and I really wish it wasn't. I wish there was something to get my mind off of it, for me to never think of it again, but I'm not lucky enough.
I just know that this sucks ass, and I'm strugglin' trying to deal with it. This is my problem...not yours..it never was, and it doesn't have to be. I'll deal with it, as i've dealed with similar things before...I just will.
I'll try not to let my fears overcome me...I'll try not to let my emotions express themselves to you...I'll just deal.

My New Years...

2004-01-02T01:45:00.000-05:00

Ok, so i've kinda been avoiding writing about my New Year's....but people have been asking what I've been up to, so here goes:
Hmm..blank of what I did...
OOOH! Right..Ok, so...Clem WOo and I had a late night on Tuesday (30th) but we had decided that we wanted to go to dim sum in the morning, and we figured we'd go to the "ha mmm cha" (late afternoon) as there are more discounts then. I woke up around 12ish, Clem got up @ 1230, and well Woo woke up when Clem called him to tell him that I was on my way to pick him up. One of my buddies...had an incident and he was quite upset and needed some consoling..(I hope you're feeling better now..)and so I talked with him for a while until I had to leave. Called Jenna to see if she could come with, but..since it was late she already told her parents she was staying home. Luckily Nick just woke up and he wanted to come with! So..the 4 of us met up @ Grass Mountain Villa - the place, according to Clem=), is getting better but their service wasn't that great. I hate it when asians discriminate according to age, not even that you're "their people" but just cuz you're young, you're punks. Anyways, I KNOW they overcharged us on this one plate...one lady had marked down the wrong thing and so when the guy crossed it off, he later charged us for it - hence ripping us off. So I told everyone the amoutn to leave, which..TECHNICALLY only left them 2+$ for tip, but I figured since you were ripping us off..you can take that money and just put it into your tip collection. As we get up, he starts mumbling and bitching about how we didn't leave enough tip and Clem, being the nice guy, gave him an extra tooney. WTF! What a loser, we've seen that guy at the Port Perry Casino, he's a MAJOR gambler too...jerk..
anyways, we called it a day, and we headed home to our respective family dinners. Mine was SOO good! There was chicken and these big shrimps hehe...mmm..yummy. Anyways, I had to wait a while, figure stuff out with Clem online...a bit of an issue with that but...we just figured we'd play by ear.
So I picked him up..and we headed over to Jenna's...our first stop. There weren't that many people there, just a small gathering but it was still cool to hang out with them for a little while. Clem got to see some of them as he hadn't since..commencement and it was some good laughs=) Around 10ish, we left there to head over to Meghan's. Emma, et al. hadn't even left Vikki's yet! She called just as we were leaving and said they'd be there shortly. So I got to see s'more people at Meghan's..that wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. We stayed for a little bit, left around 11:15ish...we got to Mel Lastman around 11:30 to realize that NOTHING was happening there! No fireworks or any festivities whatsoever...so...we just left for Clem's hill=) It was a lil' chilly and kinda windy but...that's what snuggling is for right?=) He was quite cold...I got my extra layer of insulation..heheh...but it was nice, we just looked over Toronto and...enjoyed ourselves=)
Eventually we got back into the car and since he was hungry we went to Mr. Beanery..hehe..(aka the Taiwanese place)..that's open 24 hours. Afterwards we went driving around..the 401/Leslie area..looking at houses..he's found some of his ideal bungalows..hehe...
All in all..it was a very nice and pleasant evening to ring in the new year, with my baby=) 143.
Hope you guys all had a great time and enjoyed some healthy, safe fun!!!
I don't wanna go back to school....noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

something funny

2004-01-01T02:24:00.000-05:00

I fell upon this...from someone's website, I can't really remember where but he's got the FUNNIEST stories ever...
Here's one that I laughed really loud about...

I get back to Joe, he's sitting on a bench talking to some guy with a little notepad was talking with him. Some stranger walks up to me.
STRANGER: How's it going?
ME: Pretty good, my friend is talking to some creepy bastard with a notepad.
STRANGER: Actually, (pulls out little notebook and pen) my friend and I are conducting interviews.
ME: Fuckin' A.
STRANGER: O-okay. What's your purpose on this planet?
ME: To make people laugh (am I wrong?)
STRANGER: What do you think is one of the biggest problems in this world?
ME: Irrational hatred.
STRANGER: Okay. What are your feelings about god?
Right when he said this it hit me. This isn't some small town reporter, going home to the Farmington Gazette to write a story about the big city and the state fair and all the colorful folk who go there. No, this is another jesus freak running around handing out pamphlets and trying to ruin my drunken gluttony. It took me about half a second to formulate a plan to fuck with his head and wish he never left Podunk. (Note: STRANGER will now be referred to as GODBOY for the remainder of this story.)
ME: I really don't have any feelings about him. I'm an atheist.
GODBOY: You don't believe in god?
ME: I should rephrase that. I mean, he could very well exist, I don't know. If he does, I reject him.
GODBOY: Wow, when did you first start to feel this way.
ME: It probably was when I found out I was gay.
GODBOY: R-really?
ME: Don't worry, I'm not going to hit on you or anything. You're totally not my type.
GODBOY: Okay.
ME: I don't know. It's just that when I finally got up the courage to come out of the closet, my family disowns me. My own family. I haven't seen my parents in five years. This wasn't my decision, I was born this way. What kind of god would allow that?
GODBOY: Well, I don't think you're really born gay. I think it's more like the devil putting ideas in your head.
ME: That's where I'm going to have to disagree with you. Hey, Joe(I'm getting tired of talking to GODBOY, while Joe seems to be in a real deep conversation with his interviewer). Remember those friends of ours we said we'd meet 10 minutes ago? We should leave. Thanks for the interview.
GODBOY: Thanks for your time. I'll pray for you.

I have some guy in some small town praying for me, a straight guy, to not be gay anymore. How many people can say that? I fucking rule.

If you want to read more..here's his site

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2003-12-31T18:56:00.000-05:00

I hope you all have had a wonderful 2003, and may the best of 2003 be the worst of 2004!! I hope you guys have a great time and are able to ring in the new year with the people you care about the most. Take care and you'll hear from me in the new year=)
WHOA. I"m turning 21. Oooooh yeaaaah...hehe
Take care!

worried & intimidated

2003-12-29T13:28:00.000-05:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
(1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

2003-12-28T09:53:00.000-05:00

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to always tell the difference.

a Christmas tradition=)

2003-12-24T16:35:00.000-05:00

So I think It's become official. December 23rd is Clem & my Christmas dinner! It's close enough to be Christmas, but not quite Christmas since we still haev to spend it with our own families. Yesterday was QUITE the adventure=) I woke up around 930, didn't get out of bed until 1030 since it was RAINING out and I really wasn't in the mood to go to Lawrence to play some road hockey in the rain. Apparently, neither did Clem, or Greig for that fact - he coudln't even get out of work! We're not quite sure who did end up going, I just hope Andy didn't go, cuz I told him to be there...uhoh.
Anyways, after some..hanging around the house, I showered up..'primped' hehe and headed out first to Loblaws to pick some food up and went to Jenna's. EVERYONE was there! Street, Di, Cheryl (sheryl?), Laura, Sam, Anderw LIv...SHAYNAY! It was a lot of fun, theyr'e a great bunch it's so nice to get to hang out with some good girls, after spending time with boys all year round pretty much. Everyone brought SO much food! I was sooo stuffed by the tmie I left there, Laura had bruoght her family's personal recipe of pasta sauce (which she FORCED me to eat befoer leavnig, I literally was going to throw up on her) but it was so funny. She was strugglin' SOOO badly just to make the pasta itself. She had NO problem whatsoever making this good sauce, but she coudnl't boil pasta...it was so cute! She was freakin out and everything...didn't know what to do - she'd kill me if she saw this! heeh
But yeh I had to leave at 2:15 cuz I had to take my mom to the doctor's..they were really sad about me leaving..and not returning but hopefully I can see them before they all go off again. Jenna's ahving some New year's party so I'm going to try and drop by that night=)
So yeh, went back home to pick up my mom to take her to the doctor's, she wasn't even sick! She had to get a FLU shot...eugh. I refuse to get it, I"d rather be me and fight it off myself. Just haev to be hygenic and all...
After dropping her off back at home, I rushed over to Clem's..who..OBVIOUSLY wasn't ready for our 3:30 date!!! hehe...that boy is NEVER ready when I tell him to. I think he thinks that when I give him a time, that's when he should START getting dressed! I even said "You're worse than a girl, ..the girl being me!" and he said "well that's not saying much because you're not bad at all!" hehehe..it was funny.
SO we headed over to YOrkdale for some final shopping (well for me it was final, I refuse to go back until EARLIEST Boxing day). I coudln't find any cellophane for his parents' present..and he got my parents this cool candle thingy frmo Bowring. It's pretty=) I got my CD from his parents...but coudln't find anything to return my hat for @ BR. Plus ti was major crowded in there..yucky. Then we went back to his house and i gave his paernts their present..they like it=) As well they got their present from Clem & his sister...a DIGITAL CAMERA!=)
Yup, went out to "le biftheque" for dinner, gooood stuff. Clem liked his steak there more than @ the Keg's..I think? It was bigger at least. Then we spent some time together and called up woo for some cards. Woo had to leave early so we played some RETURN OF THE KING...hehe for PS2! I loev that game but we can't finish this one part..it' sosoo annoying!
Anyways, I better get going...gotta help with dinner.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!=)

Good weekend!

2003-12-22T11:18:00.000-05:00

So, after I stumbled on home after my drinkin @ work..hehe..I went out with Eileen & Christine after dinner. We were gonna go to BBT, but then we remembered that the hockey game was on so we decided to try and get into a pub/bar..despite the fact that Christine's only 18!=) I gave her my OLD G1...but she obviously couldn't use it while I used mine! Anyways, we tried The Frog & Firkin first, but it was PACKED...so we went across the street to Smokey Joe's...the service was kinda crummy @ first but then our waiter was pretty cool. I think he got a lil' impatient with us cuz we kept talkin and not deciding on what we wanted=) Watched the game - which we tied! - and we just kept talking and talking..hehe, filling each other in with stories and all that stuff! I know their secrets!!! teehee...well more so than Eileen's..Christine I kinda already knew=) We left kinda early, cuz Christine was leaving for Montreal at 6 the next morning and Eileen had to work @ 7!
On Saturday, went to lunch with my parents and my mom's cousin, who gave us SO much stuff! A Ham, a BUTTERBALL turkey, TWO dozen patties! (He owns Fahmee Bakery..their patties are DEFINITELy the best in Toronto..none of this crappy "patty king") Everyone that's ever had it said it's soo good, I concur. Cept, I always get the mild ones...I can't handle the spicey ones. That's why my house is full of the milds...heheh
Went home to bum around, and then went to pick Jenna around 8:30..her new KITTEN is SO cute! Addison (adison?), aww he's adorable, I love playing wtih him. She has this..stick with this..thingy attached to the end of it and if you wave it around he goes NUTS. We got him jumping up and down like CRAZY but it's sooo funny; her parents said it perfectly: It's better than watching cable. hahaha!
We met up with Clem & Woo @ Marche, we were a LITTLE bit late:) and Jenna and I HAD to share a crepe..hmmmmmmm, and Woo had dinner! He had turkey..and we were trying to distinguish whether or not it was real..tried to see if it would peel hehehe. Clem wasn't feeling that great, but then decided to eat some solid foods, so he got himself a rosti..hehe and then he gave in and had apple strudel:) We decided to go back to Jenna's to play this game called CRANIUM. It's a lot of fun! It's a combination of trivial pursuit, charades and pictionary...the first game was close, Jenna & Woo beat us, but then the second one Clem and I dominated! Gotta give credit though, the two of them fought back. There was one time where woo had to act out a Carberator...heheh...it was funny; then we had to do missionary..clem got EVERYTHING but! "Jesus, man walking...praying, the pope, a priest, hiking.." hehehe...then I had to do Heart Burn..and he kept saying the most random thing...Mutation was funny too!
So we played that til about 1:30..called it a night.
Yesterday, I was going to go to lunch with clem but the fella probably played too much CS the night before and woke up @ 1130!!! His mom woke him up to go shopping @ 100 with his cousin...so..couldn't go! I ended up running some errands, went to get the car washed, took like 20 mins waiting in line!! I guess cuz ti was a nice day so everyone wanted to get their car cleaned. Afterwards I went to visit Eileen at Timothy's, she made me a smoothie or SOMETHING...it was GOOD..and she only charged me for a small coffee..hehe cept there was a mixup, she thought I gave her a 10 but it was really a 20..it was kinda funny! Went to the bank to drop off my money...and then headed back home. Went to Candlelight service last night, it was funny..I couldn't stop laughing, which was BAD because I was serving so everyone could see! Gabe & Winson kept...nudging me and Justin continuously was laughing in the first row, causing US to laugh! I don't think anyone saw, so that's OK..hehehe..
Stuck around to say hi to everyone, OMG..Shellen..showed up after THREE MONTHS! hhehe..crazy girl=) Met up with the boys @ Tennis..and then we went to eat (MY DINNER!) at the Taiwanese place...the guys accidentally ate most of my chicken..hehe but s'ok I got some of their's=) After that called it a night..and now I'm sleepy cuz i only got like 5.5 hours of sleep..d'ohh....
At work right now, might be meeting up with Clement later today. Carmen got me INfernal Affairs TWO!!! I think i'll watch that tonight=) Tomorrow's a BIG day! We got our annual "band vs strings" road hockey game (yay I get to see people!) and then Jenna's having a gathering with all the "street" people..hehe get it?!?! (for those of you who know Street..you'll get it) and then dinner with Clem..our Christmas dinner!:) Yay! He might be coming to service on Thursday.....to see Phong get baptized:) Ok so i'll blog later!
MERRY CHRISTMAS...HAPPY HOLIDAYS....HAVE FUN!=)

Drunk on the job..hehe

2003-12-19T15:40:00.000-05:00

Ok, so today was the staff Christmas party @ work, and we had some food here in the office and then just over an hour ago we went down stairs to "Elephant & Castle" and I only got an hour...we had to go in shifts as we couldn't leave the phones..hehe I had a Singapore Sling - not too bad - and then I had a Strawberry Margarita! That tasted a little minty it was kinda weird but not too bad. The hour went by pretty quickly, heard lots of drinking and smoking-up stories. Man, I'm quite tammed compared to the people here! hehe...
But yeh, I"m kinda red now, but not drunk, otherwise I'm almost certain that this would be incoherent...
but yeh, I definitely need to go to bed now.
G'nite=)

Return of the King

2003-12-19T14:16:00.000-05:00

"The crownless again shall be king". ~ Arwen
Ooooooh it was good. Cept, the entire movie I just kept waiting for someone, or EVERYONE to die. This past year, Clem kept telling me that everyone was going to die..or at least someone of significance was going to die. So...I sat there, thinking "ohhh man, here it comes..." or "Ohhh no, they're going to die like this!" End of it, NOTHING. It kinda ruined the movie for me, a little bit but still good nonetheless. I loved the elephant/legolas scene, it was so cool..he's so swift..hehe
I loved how everything was so exact, you could really tell that they were so precise and paid attention to every little detail. And if you found something that was "wrong"...well too bad, I didn't see it! hehe That spider was freakin' gross...eww! But yeh, I won't ruin it for those who haven't seen it, unless I did already but...sorry! hehe
But yeh, it was nice to see Hales again=) I haven't seen her since Kill Bill..she brought her friend who everyone thought was Ekborn..but..obviously wasn't. hehe
Work is boring, I wanna go home and sleep. The movie ended around 2...got home about 2:30..slept @ 3, woke up @ 7:45....*ugh*...

2 Malls, 2 girls, 1 boy = 1 pair of POWER shoes

2003-12-18T10:29:00.000-05:00

HAHAH...so yesterday I FINALLY got to meet up with Emma!!=) We had tried getting together since Monday but just didn't work out! Anyways so I picked her up around 3ish..couldn't decide what to do so we called up Good ol'e Alan and picked him up too. Decided to walk around Yorkdale..just to get some "exercise" hehe, and ended up that only Alan was the one to get something! He saw these VANS that he really liked but they didn't have a size 13!!! He's got BIG feet, but he is a big boy...who's STILL growing. Man I felt like such a shrimp with those two, Emma's like 5'10 and he's about 6'3! I felt so tiny, hehehe. Anyways, so Athletes World didn't have his size so we decided to leave (cuz we already walked through the entire mall)and we decided to go to Fairview to see if they had his size. Traffic was sooo crummy! I hate rush hour! But we made it, it was just the whole...Allen Rd/401 connection, after that it was quite smooth for that hour. So we got to Athletes World and they didn't even have his VANS! But he kept looking and he found this other pair...that were only 60$...and they're POWER brand. Haha it was funny, but they were cool looking so who cares! We bought those and then headed over to the good CW cuz we were hungry.
OMG, I honestly gained 10 pounds on last night's dinner. It was CRAZy. We ordered 3 big plates, small bowl of congee and "ja leung". It was NUTS. Alan hadn't eaten all day, I ate an early lunch and Emma was hungry. We ALMOST finished it, and Clem, after going to his office Christmas dinner @ Bloomsbury (which he hated!=( met up with us there. He was shocked at the amount of food we had. There was a bit of a mixup, but...Alan assured us he could do it. He pretty much did, there was some leftover but not a lot!
Anyways afterwards Emma wanted to watch the game so we went over to Alan's to watch the Raptors LOSE....while we played some pool/darts in his basement and Emma even did her crossword in Peoples magazine. There's this really cute article on Chris & Gwyneth about their pregnancy, he's kissing her belly and stuff, I think they just got their first ultrasound and such...soo cute=) Apparently they ELOPED! Not even their parents were there...that sucks! But they're in Mexico now, on their honeymoon, I read in the Metro today that he had to get stitches! (gasp) from surfing..haha Anyways! There was an article on Ryan & Trista's wedding...4 MILLION$!!! That's crazy...Clem was right, they did get 1 million for allowing ABC to air the whole thing.
After the Raps lost, I drove Emma home cuz she was sleepy while the guys played Top Spin and then later on we played Mario Cart..the new version from Gamecube or something..it's fun!=) The stupid boys let me choose the SLOW car..and then Alan eventually told me.....to change carts...and then I won! heheheh
But yeah...now I"m sleepy..and wondering if I should really go to see LOTR tonight since I"ll be home by 2 and then gotta come to work again tomorrow...boooo=(

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2003-12-16T11:09:00.000-05:00

So I'm ALL done! My exam lasted me about an hour and a half, there were some tricky questions and hopefully I get part marks:) Wrote down all the crap I could remember, and BS'ed some of it too! After my exam I had some errands to run around campus - pick up January metropass, and had to go to Robarts to photocopy this reading for one of my courses - I HATE ROBARTS! It's so sucky and wayyy too big, not user-friendly...haha Ok, maybe it is for other people, so it's not DENISE-friendly!
Anyways afterwards came home took a shower and my sweetie picked me up! He had a full day of walking around downtown with Emma & Wilf..shopping and such at the EC (I couldn't go:( and since he wasn't hungry we decided to walk IKEA! I love that place! hehehehe We were deciding what fridge is best...and our kitchen will be all CHROMED out..haha..I learned that Ikea has an "AS-IS" Room! I had no idea!!! They got all this stuff in there, that you just walk out with...well pay for and then walk out! He was trying to sell me this CD shelf thingy, and it's nice but I have nowhere in my room to put it...heheh, after we walked away from them, these two other couples walked right up and were checking it out...it was funny=)
Anyways, afterwards we went to THE KEG!!! He used his 50$ Gift Certificate from work that he got...GOOD STUFF! I got the Chicken and Ribs - it's final, NO ONE can beat my mother's RIBS. NO ONE. I have NEVER tasted anything AS good, not even close! MANY people have agreed with me that they're GREAT. Clem's a lil' iffy but I think, partly a.) it was too hyped up and b.) he's got tough taste. hehe Esp his cake taste! That boy won't eat anything that doesn't come out of his daddy's own bakery! It makes sense though his daddy's cakes are SOOO good...well anything that comes out of that bakery is SOOOOO GOOD! Their croissants were rated BEST in Toronto...well, it was rated second best, but the top winner was SUPPLIED by his bakery. So..yah, top two spots=) If you're wondering..look up PATACHOU...mmmmmmmmmm......just thinking about those mini tarts/pastries...mmmmmm
Anyways so we had our dinner, yummy, THANK YOU BMO! We just added some money for the guy's tip=) And then afterwards we just hung around for a bit and called up Woo and we played some cards..Emma was tired I believe and wanted to stay in to watch the OC so I'm gonna see her later today after my office Christmas party! But yah, Woo lost again, he basically paid for the tip...of the meal...heheh...Clem won even more from him. Poor guy...but he still likes playing=) At work now...stupid TTC stalled me 30 mins! Some big "incident" at King Stn...it was sooo cold sitting on the train they woudln't close the freakin' doors!
Anyways, I'm having fun so far! i wish school would NEVER commence..or I was done....
TOBOGANNING!!=)

GRRRRRRRRREAT weekend!

2003-12-15T00:46:00.000-05:00

So what I thought was going to be so sucky and yucky...turned out to be an AMAZING, fun-filled, full of laughter, wish-making WEEKEND! You can read below what I did yesterday but tonight was lots of fun too. After work I rushed home so I could do s'more studying for my exam tomorrow...I feel half-confident, half worried..60%...soooo much. BUt anyways, after lotsa pleading and "I hope you'll be there!", I let myself go to Chris & Ern's house for a BIG dinner! It was sooo much fun! Ernest, Chris & Matt were hosting, hehe, EIleen, Cal and Bonnie were there, we had soooo much fun laughing and such! Talking about res pranks, skiing/snowboarding adventures - they found my experience from last year quite funny=) THEN after dinner and YUMMMMMY dessert, we headed out to a local park where we went toboganning!! First time this winter! It was a tiny hill but ohhh were we laughing our heads off. My stomach AND my head hurt as we ran back to the house as the parents were leaving. There were these two other guys there at the park they were pretty cool, they helped us build a ramp and everything.
Ernest & Christine & matthew, according to size steam-rolled the ramp it was sooo funny, but it is a smart way to pack the snow..hehe THen there wereall the times that CAL went MAJORLY airborne..hahah his butt musta hurt SO BAD. Unfortunately, not bad enough to chase me down and dunk snow on me!!! BOOOOO! hehe
We took some crazy pictures on Chris' camera so hope I get to see those before she goes back to the 'loo.
Ahhh it was fun, we're gonna have a get-together on FRIDAY night, gotta figure out what kind of trouble we're get ourselves into ..hehehe...some drunk'n fun?
Ohhh, for those of you...I like moosehead, it's lite=) Well Id on't think I'd drink an entire 24, not even a six-pack..but I can handle it=) WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Back to the books...*sigh* 15 more hours until it's all over..then i'm FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FALLING!